Although I don’t think you and I will end up dating or in a relationship, I would like to stay friends with you. I enjoy your presence in my life — I like having someone to say “good morning” and “sweet dreams” to on a daily basis. I like having someone greet me back. I like the way you smile and the way you try to mimic my facial expressions. I would like to get to know you on a more personal level; I want to know what makes you tick, what makes you smile, what makes you.. you.
I do wish you would respond to me faster. We haven’t been talking as frequently as we were in the beginning. I am confused on where we stand. It’s probably a red flag since I asked you what we were and you said that you’re always too busy for a relationship. Which could be true — I won’t dispute that. And then you went on to confuse me. When I asked if we could stay friends you said “For now…” Does that mean you’re semi-interested? Or what? Because if you’re really not interested, please just tell me. I’ve played games long enough.
I read somewhere that you shouldn’t censor yourself just for the sake of others. That you should show them who you are — the real you, 100%, and if they can’t accept that then it’s their loss, not yours. I don’t know if I’ve been holding back or if I’ve changed a lot… kind of don’t know who I am anymore, to be honest. But I know that you make me smile and you make me want to be a better version of me. I wonder if you think the same of me.